Lovey Delivery

I can't believe it's been 2 years since I held you in my arms. I miss you deeply and love you fiercely. I'm so grateful and proud to by your mother, son. 

We went to Jordan Valley NICU today. Aunt Amanda works there and when you were in the NICU after you were born she was always asking the doctors there questions about your case. They were so great to answer her question and help us understand things. 

I sure wish you were here in person to give these lovies to the fighters with us. 

So grateful for our family and that we will all be together again one day. The knowledge that families are eternal keeps me going. 

Ellen was the doctor that Amanda constantly consulted and talked to. It was great to meet her and thank her in person. 

We loved having Aunt Amanda take us around her NICU. 

We loved feeling a connection to the NICU since we couldn't be at yours. We really have a place in our hearts for every single NICU. You spent your entire life there and I'm so grateful for the memories we got to make together. 

I called auntie Angie this morning to see if she could make us something to take to the NICU explaining why they are getting a lovey. She made this with the words I wanted and it couldn't be more perfect. So grateful. 

I love you, Caleb Luke. 

To heaven and back. 

It's coming

We are getting closer to your two year angelversary. I still can't believe your time came to go back to heaven so soon. I miss you. So much I can't express it. July 8th, 2014 was such a hard day. I can't believe our family went through all we did. I dread that date but it's almost here again. When you have lost someone you relive the day they passed away when it comes. It's such a hard day. 

I love you so much, Caleb. I'm so thankful you're my son. So thankful I was chosen to be your mother. Thank you for everything you taught me. I am a much better person because of you. 

Love you to heaven and back. 

Xoxo

Mom 

Busy

Wow life is sure busy. Especially with your 5 sisters. They keep me busy and on my toes. Sometimes it's hard that things are so busy because I feel like I don't get to write to you as much as I want to. No matter what gets done there's always more that could have been done or should have been done. But I am grateful I get to do everything with them. It was so hard when I was in the hospital for weeks and weeks and couldn't do anything form them. I love being home and enjoying them. I sure wish you were running around the house too. I miss you and love you more than you could ever know. 

Hallie got an award in music for her hard work and dedication in orf ensemble. Out of all the student only 4 got a special award and she was one of them. She would go in early before school day after day to practice. So happy for her! 

The girls got to go to a daddy daughter dance that was a sock hop for a faith in God activity and they had a blast. Your dad sure is awesome!!! 

Julia had her field trip to the zoo and was beyond excited. She absolutely loved it. 

Audrey and Hallie were goofing around before bed and Audrey slit her eye brow in the corner of the wall. Thankfully she didn't need stitches so Dr Britt glued her back together for us! 

Dad and I got to go on a date night with some friends and had a great time! 

We went to a crawfish boil and had such a great time. 2nd one we've been to after 10 years in Texas! 

The girls can't get enough puppies! 

Lexie's new face when she's excited!!! 

The girls did run club and got to do a color run. Here's before: 

And here's after: 

Julia was in a play at school the BUGZ musical and she was the cutest butterfly ever. She had a few speaking parts and did an awesome job! 

Lexie has entered the dangerous stage. 

Claire tried out for freshman cheer and daddy sent her flowers. 

I need to find the pic of Claire after making the team. She worked so hard and I am so excited for her. We screamed our heads off in the car when we found out she made it. 

Well I'd better go. Claire has awards today and there's always a million things on the to do list. Its a good thing though! ;) 

I love you, son. 

Xoxo

Mom 

March of Dimes Walk

We did our walk to honor you again this year. Can't believe it's already our second walk. We got to meet some amazing new families whose babies were also in the NICU. One of the families, the Kramers, have twin girls. Stella got to go home much sooner than Katie. Katie has a trach like you did and had a very hard and difficult road in the NICU. I'm so happy she got to go home to her family after months and months and months fighting for her life. She actually received 2 lovies from us while she was in the hospital when we went for your angelversary last year as well as your birthday. It makes my heart so happy to know they got lovies from you. 

The other family we met, the Hills, had triplets and their oldest triplet Christipher is in heaven with you. I'm sure you're friends and watch over us. They are both amazing families and I feel so honored that they joined our team. 

They did the path of hope to honor or give memory to those in the NICU. Pretty sure I submitted your entry at the last second and didn't realize I put your birthday wrong. Oops. Next year I'll get it right. :) 

When i saw this headband for Lexie I had to buy it. The colors are perfect for your walk. Only somehow I dropped it in the parking lot and I was devastated. Sweet Hallie bought her a new one for the next walk and it arrived yesterday. She is such a tender hearted girl. 

We loved walking for you, Caleb. Your NICU buddies were there in spirit. One had to get staples cause he fell off the couch the night before..poor boy.  Another NICU friend's mom had to work and she couldn't come alone. ;) Another buddy moved to the east coast so they couldn't come. But we could feel their love along with our family that couldn't come. 

Oh sweet boy, if you only knew how much you are loved and missed. 

I love you to heaven and back. 

Xoxo

Mom 

No way around it

My heart just aches for you. It feels as though my arms haven't held you for decades and my heart has been broken for centuries. It hasn't even been 2 years since you slipped back to heaven and yet it feels like forever since I was able to kiss you. This mama heart is tired of hurting. 

I love you, son. 

Xoxo

Mom 

P.S. Now that this day is over and I read what I wrote I am so grateful that these intense moments of sadness aren't what I feel all the time. I of course ache for you daily but I am so grateful for the strength and comfort I receive constantly from my Savior. 

Caleb's Courage T-Shirts

I'm so excited about these shirts to celebrate Caleb and the other Dallas Presby babies. If you would like to order a shirt to honor Caleb (along with names on the back of other babies who are prresby proud), whether you're walking with us or not, they will be $16. What is left over after paying for the shirt will go towards March of Dimes fundraising!!! 

Keep in mind the women's t-shirts are fitted not the typical baggy t-shirt. 

Women's: xs, s, m, l, xl, xxl, xxxl, xxxxl. 

Men's: xs, s, m, l, xl, xxl, xxxl, xxxxl. 

Youth: xs, s, m, l, xl

Shirts are royal blue.

You can send money to me via PayPal to make it super easy. Leahefish@gmail.com or if you want my home address send me an email. 

Please let me know by 4:00pm tomorrow if you want one and what size. Sorry the notice is so short but this weekend was a doozy. All is well but let's just say there was very little sleep involved. Spread the word, please! 😀

Thanks in advance!

Xoxo 

This is the front of the shirt:

The back says Presby Proud with a list of presby babies. So excited!