I have found that the older I get the harder Mother's Day is for me. Now that I have a child in heaven it just gets harder. I feel like Morher's Day causes me to see my faults under a magnifying glass and notice all of my flaws. When I think about not being able to spend it with one of my children it makes me feel so devasted I can't even express the pain I feel in my heart. Yet my other amazing children that I do get the privilege of spending it with I feel as though I am failing.
I know that Mother's Day is to show appreciation and love for the Mother's in our lives (whether biological or not) and celebrate them. It's not meant to be a day for mothers to feel like they should be perfect and down because they arent. I wish I felt more adequate to receive such praise from my girls.
If only my children, each of you, knew how much I love you and how hard I try to be the mother the Lord needs me to be. I love each of you more than words can express, more than there are sands in the sea, all the way to heaven and back. I will keep trying each day my hardest, and relying on the Lord to help me and strengthen me along the way. My savior is my light and my song. He leads me through life and gives me unconditional grace, love and mercy.
I miss you my seeet boy.
So very much.
Xoxo
Mom
