Lovey Delivery

I can't believe it's been 2 years since I held you in my arms. I miss you deeply and love you fiercely. I'm so grateful and proud to by your mother, son. 

We went to Jordan Valley NICU today. Aunt Amanda works there and when you were in the NICU after you were born she was always asking the doctors there questions about your case. They were so great to answer her question and help us understand things. 

I sure wish you were here in person to give these lovies to the fighters with us. 

So grateful for our family and that we will all be together again one day. The knowledge that families are eternal keeps me going. 

Ellen was the doctor that Amanda constantly consulted and talked to. It was great to meet her and thank her in person. 

We loved having Aunt Amanda take us around her NICU. 

We loved feeling a connection to the NICU since we couldn't be at yours. We really have a place in our hearts for every single NICU. You spent your entire life there and I'm so grateful for the memories we got to make together. 

I called auntie Angie this morning to see if she could make us something to take to the NICU explaining why they are getting a lovey. She made this with the words I wanted and it couldn't be more perfect. So grateful. 

I love you, Caleb Luke. 

To heaven and back. 

It's coming

We are getting closer to your two year angelversary. I still can't believe your time came to go back to heaven so soon. I miss you. So much I can't express it. July 8th, 2014 was such a hard day. I can't believe our family went through all we did. I dread that date but it's almost here again. When you have lost someone you relive the day they passed away when it comes. It's such a hard day. 

I love you so much, Caleb. I'm so thankful you're my son. So thankful I was chosen to be your mother. Thank you for everything you taught me. I am a much better person because of you. 

Love you to heaven and back. 

Xoxo

Mom