Missing You

I miss you so very much, Caleb. This morning was a hard morning. Not for any particular reason just missing my boy. Some days are harder than others. I look through pictures and videos of you and wish I had more. More pictures with you smiling. More videos of you. Just more of you. You were so tired and sick most of the time that it was so hard to look through them. I am so sorry you were so sick. I'm so sorry it was so hard for you to breathe. I'm just so sorry. I love you. I'm thankful you are no longer suffering but oh how I miss you. I love you, son. 

Xoxo 

Mom 

Happy Birthday, Son!

I love celebrating your birthday. It's the day you came into the world and should be celebrated every. single. year.  It's of course hard that you aren't here with us physically but it is a day that I will always be happy about because it's your day. It's the day I got to see your spirit through your beautiful dark eyes. The day I got to see that you blew your sisters out of the water with how much hair you had. It's the day I got to see that you have your daddy's eyebrows and long toes. I was already getting to know you but I actually got to meet you that day. I already knew you were brave and courageous and it was magnified that day. I didn't know then that your life on earth would be so short. But my goodness did you leave an impact on so many people, sweet boy.

You will always be our superhero.

It still blows me away that you have 5 sisters. Man they love you. Man they miss you. We all do.

We got to celebrate with friends. We, of course, had to invite nurse Adrianne and her family. The Taylors came as well.

The Stogners were able to make it. Jayce and Dayton were your first buddies in the NICU.

They gave us a beautiful snow globe that has your birthday and "Our Superhero" inscribed on it. We will put it out every year.

The girls had fun reading to the boys.

We had to get their picture with Lexie!

The Hansen's were also able to come.

Isabel and her many faces.

Audrey photobombing.

Little Lily made a debut.

Dad's going to be mad I posted this but it captures how silly and goofy he is and 

it's one of the things I love about him. 

Your sister took the camera around and snapped lots of pictures. Not too shabby. Hidden talent maybe?

We gave each friend a superhero puzzle. Your sisters loved puzzles when they were little and I'd like to think that if you were here you'd like puzzles too.

I miss you so very much. 

I love you, son.

Happy 2nd Birthday, Caleb Luke.

I love you all the way to heaven and back,

xoxo

Mom

Pictures from your Lovey Drive

We had so much participation in your lovey drive and it made my heart happy each time we received one. I am so grateful to everyone that sent them to us. One person sent 20!!!! I was shocked! 

Going to the NICU is something we look forward to and we love giving those 

babies their own lovey in your honor. 

Your sisters are just the cutest aren't they? :)

Here we are with Katie, one of your awesome nurses.

 Oh these halls. We walked through them so many times.

We left hats that a dear friend crocheted for the little preemies. 

They are soooooo cute and tiny and were made with so much love.

 I was so excited to see Nurse Vicki there! We love her too!

 Waiting patiently. :)

Here's a pic whole family. 

I like to think you are in the NICU often providing strength and comfort to the fighters there. I am certain there were angels around you when you were there and I'm sure you're helping the babies and families now. Happy Birthday, sweet boy. You are celebrated so very much and your life will always be remembered. 

I love you all the way to heaven and back.

xoxo

Mom

March of Dimes Walk: Team Caleb's Courage!

It's getting close to March of dimes and we are so excited to walk this year for our sweet Caleb. If you'd like to walk with us,  join our team Caleb's Courage here! We would love to have anyone that can come do this with us. It is free to walk and I will be posting shirts soon for anyone that wants to order them (aside from the cost of the T-shirt, it will go towards March for Babies fundraiser). There is also a spot on the website where you can donate if you would like too!

Thanks for all of the love and support each of you have given us over the past 2 years. 

We love you all. 

xoxo

Fish Fam