Weekend Setback

Saturday night I set up to have someone come babysit so Zeb and I could have a date night. Even though we couldnt go anywhere we wanted to spend time together just the two of us. Just as he was picking up the babysitter my fluid started leaking again. We had an ultrasound which showed AFI at 11 but I kept leaking. We arranged for someone to stay with the girls so Zeb could be with me. The bishop came by and he and Zeb gave me a blessing. It always gives me strength when I receive blessing. I am so grateful for the priesthood. I leaked all through the night. By Sunday morning I had almost stopped leaking completely. They happened to come for the ultrasound while Zeb ran to church to teach a lesson. So Zeb was there when  I found out my AFI was 3.7. To be honest, I was really surprised it was that low and so was Zeb. I just didn't think I leaked as much as I did 2 weeks ago, let alone more. Zeb came right over when he got the text from me about my levels. When he got here he was hoping it was a typo. I was grateful to hold his hand and have him here. 

In the afternoon the young men from our church came over and brought us the sacrament. As they blessed the sacrament the spirit was strong. It was one of the most spiritual times I have ever taken the sacrament. I could feel the words of the prayer and the promises the Savior gives. If we keep His commandments and always remember Him we WiLL have his spirit to be with us. The closeness I felt to my Savior was a very neat and strengthening experience for me. 

We had lots of visitors, texts and calls. We are so grateful for all the love, prayers, and support. We are thankful for each and every one of you. 

My AFI this morning is at 4.9. It took quite a while to find pockets of fluid that didn't have the umbilical cord in them. And although they were small, I did have a few. We will continue to take each day as it comes and find strength in The Lord. He knows us and what we are going through. He is strengthening me more than I can even express. 

Dr. Gillean came in this morning and we had a long chat. She is such a great Doctor. At this point her thinking is that the 2 layers of the membrane (in the amniotic sac) shift. With the tear through the entire membrane she thinks that one of the layers shifts closing the tear more. Then for whatever reason, maybe baby moving or high level of fluid etc, the membrane shifts and the door opens more or even completely. Because of this situation it will be up and down a lot and we just wait it out. We are hopeful the fluid will build back up because it did the first time. No signs of infection and no contractions.

At this point if I were to go into labor my situation is different than others. If I were just having preterm labor they would most likely give me some drugs to stop labor. But typically if you go into labor when you have PROM (premature rupture of membranes) it's linked to an infection from me or the baby. So it usually does more harm than good to aggressively stop contractions in my situation.

We are two weeks away from viability, or the age in which this little guy could have a chance to survive. I will still be transferred when I reach 24 weeks to a hospital with a NICU and hope to stay pregnant as long as possible. At that time they can give me a steroid shot to help his lungs develop faster which typically will help him do better once he is born. We need more time. It feels so close I can almost touch it, but yet I can't. Caleb's heart rate is in the 140's and he now weighs 1 pound. He still moves quite a bit. They put me back on IV fluids to help try and build up my AFI. We are doing all we can and like I said, we will just take things one day at a time.

Thank you everyone for your prayers and love.

We will get though this.

Xoxo

Leah